What Is Happening To Me?: How To Defeat Your Unseen Enemy, by Jeannie Ortega Law
[Note: This book was provided free of charge by Chosen Books in exchange for an honest review. All thoughts and opinions are my own.]
In many ways, this book combines two subjects I find deeply interesting for personal reasons, and that is the memoir of a crappy childhood along with a thoughtful discussion of the demented popular culture of the contemporary age. In reading this particular work, I thought that there was a lot that would be deeply interesting to many readers, especially to young women who struggle to find their voice and a place in this world, overcome unpleasant family backgrounds, deal with vices common to attracted and talented people, and deal with the struggles of being a new Christian and dealing with the attitudes of others towards people whose walk is not yet godly enough to pass muster with many church people. While the author is not necessarily an extremely famous person, she did have a hit on the Hot 100 and also had performed in a couple of notable and successful tours and had a small part in the film Step Up, so she had achieved at least modest success within contemporary culture before her conversion to Christianity.
This book is a bit more than 200 pages and is divided into twelve chapters that blend a narrative discussion of the author’s upbringing and life up to the present-day along with the author’s spiritual commentary and reflections on the insights that she learned along the way. The book begins with a foreword by Darryl Strawberry which shows some relatability. After that comes a discussion of the author’s childhood in a troubled family background that also featured some dark spiritual ties to witchcraft. The author discusses her discovery of sex and her dealing with issues of attractiveness and temptation and the way that this continued to be an issue not only through her pop career but also her early time as a Christian. After that comes a discussion of her interest in the ministry as well as growing personal relationship with God and her marriage. The book ends with three chapters that discuss matter of proper spiritual authority, how one fights from victory, and how one defeats one’s enemy, as the book combines demonology as well as memoir in an effective fashion, ending with acknowledgements.
It should be noted that although I was not familiar with the author’s career before reading the book and therefore did not have the sort of interest in her life and career that some other readers will have, especially those familiar with her more recent work, this is a compelling book as well as one which combines a certain modesty with a certain fierceness. The author’s wrestling with the darkness was profound–she and her older sister were raised Santeria by their family and there was a fair amount of alcohol abuse on the part of the author’s father during her childhood. Rejected by her peers growing up, the author was suicidal during her youth, and comments that she had a difficult time escaping the lure of sin with both male and female entertainers during her time as a pop singer, though she delicately does not name names–looking at her tour list it is quite possible to infer some of the people involved in seeking to seduce her, though. Also poignant is the author’s discussion of her frustrated desire for motherhood given three miscarriages, as well as her dealings with the ministry of the church where she attended after her conversion to Christianity, which she again deals with delicately given the explosive matters she discusses about the cattiness of some of the church leadership.